Then, as my day progresses, I seem to put Him second. I know that I shouldn't but it happens more often than now. His teaching and lessons are pushed aside for the world. I get sucked into the comparison game and then I feel like I am not good enough. I forget about letting God and try to solve all these problems by myself.
This semester I moved out completely on my own. I had been on my own - back to my parents- on my own - grad school - but I always had a cushion somehow. Now it's real. Financially I have had a rough few months. I am thriving within my budget but sometimes that word [budget] is so so hard to live with. I see my friends going out and doing such fun [but very expensive] things and then I get upset. I forget about the slow teachings early in the morning with Jesus and coffee about how He has always provided. This semester is more about me figuring out who I am, what my passions are, and surrendering it all to His will.
Slowly, I am learning that it's okay that my apartment isn't pinterest worthy at this moment. I am learning how to search for deals. I am learning to make friend fun nights by going to free workout classes or cooking dinner together. I am learning to explore my city by just walking around with the dog. I am learning that I can be happy despite what I might be struggling with at the moment. God is always there. Always teaching. Always providing. He is way more than enough.
What are you learning in the tough seasons?